lying to one's self is the reason why relationships go on longer than they should have.  knowing when you are with the right person comes when you love all the great things about them, but also accept all the flaws that come with your significant other unconditionally.  the moment you dont, and think you can change them into something different, marks the beginning of the end.

had some good fun on the wkend.  sara and i went for some "adventure race"  training at edwards gardens in the morning.   let me tell you, nothing injects more excitment into a run of the mill jog in the park than sliding on your ass down a 55 degree muddy slope into a beaver dam. 

at night, we got involved in a little bit of hooliganism.  rick got his z28 out of storage and i had mine out too.  we decided to go for a cruise downtown, and on the way back, we got into some inpromptu races on down the dvp.  First it was some guy driving an infiniti FX45 who thought he was driving a sports car.  I gave him the punch and passed him by 5th gear... he wasnt too much of a contest.  Then we came across a boxster S... being the shit disturber I am, I slowed down next to him to see if he wanted to go.  our friend seemed willing to show me what his "autobahn-bred" porsche had, so i let him go in front of me.  I was on his bumper the entire way as he accelerated and i had to let off the gas a few times to prevent ramming him.. but the dude was playing dirty and sat in between two lanes!  I didnt want to get into an accident so I was content sitting behind him.  Rick flys by both of us at around 220 kph after the 404 opens up after steeles.  

i was about to say that this car is trouble.. but its not the problem. im the problem! i dont know why i have this desire to punk ppl off if given the opportunity.  everytime i see some chinaman in a riced-out rsx, bmw, civic, etc, i have this uncontrollable urge to blow their doors off.   maybe my gas bill will help rein in that desire.. 30 dollars of gas only got me 250km's worth of distance.. OUCH!!!

speaking of toys...

http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=4287444413

walking outside has given me a new outlook on life.  usually i walk to my office underground through the path system from unionstation.  recently, with the weather warming up a bit, ive begun walking outside to take advantage of the more direct route in.  i pass by at least 5 homeless people on my 2 block stroll in every day and it really helps to put things into perspective.  i used to sit around comparing what i dont have against other ppl, when instead, i should be damn happy with what i have.  sure, i have student loans looming over me, but i also have a warm place to come home to each night and never have to worry about where im going to get my next meal.

i used to get bothered about not making enough  loot relative to my friends.  but after talking to them, would i really trade places?  on wkends, i get to go home and hang out with my gf, friends or family instead.  i know guys who are putting in 100 hrs/wk plugging away at the office.  when is it all enough? i make enough to put food on the table (or actually, sara helps to put the food on the table...this girl is too nice to me.), save up a bit, and buy a few toys here and there <grin>.  cant ask for too much more than that.

dont be complacent - reach for all that you can accomplish, but enjoy the things that you have and the ppl around you.